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Decolonize Your Mind

It was a cloudy, rainy morning. The clouds were heavy and expectant. I had run along the perimeter of a national park, my mind shrouded by the thought of meeting lions on the prowl. It didn’t help that I had been watching strange men on social media taking pictures and videos of lions while having morning tea while the lions passed by.       

These and other thoughts kept me company in the silence, only interrupted by my breathing. In those moments, the need to speak to another person seemed alien.

Yet when I transitioned from the lonely roads of Rongai, through Karen and back to my estate, and my run became a walk, a young man stopped me.

 He seemed unsure, almost embarrassed. Yet his demeanor was confident, and his eyes spoke of an intelligence that sought attention.  

“Excuse me, Sir, might you have a minute?”

He hurriedly used the precious seconds before my surprise turned hostile or indifferent.  

“I'm hungry and would appreciate it if you could buy me a mandazi, if you don’t mind. I haven’t eaten for two days, and any help would be a blessing.”

He paused. His eyes were pleading. My surprise didn’t have a moment to turn hostile.

I hesitated.

He dove back in.

“I have been looking for kazi ya mjengo for the last few days, and I haven’t been lucky. I need a meal to take care of today. Anything you can spare, Sir, I would greatly appreciate it.”

He was frustrated. I could tell he was a person who would make a difference in a company if employed. He was no lazy bum; he was clean and alert.

“Have you been to college or university?” I heard myself asking, deducing he had, and only wanting to confirm it.

“Yes, I attended Jomo Kenyatta University and earned a degree in Procurement.” He said with no hint of pride.

I sighed quietly. For a while, many had been convinced that getting into Procurement was a sure bet. It was access to an institution's resources, and it was how some government employees had gotten wealthy. This young man was the product of hearsay, assumptions, and conclusions drawn by many, whose sole desire was to follow the money and secure a stable income in a highly competitive job market. I would bet beyond a shadow of doubt the young man had no passion for procurement.


I would make another wilder guess that his parents, uncles and community had something to do with the course he picked. And back home, they hoped their son would soon secure a prestigious job in the city.

 None of us is wiser. How many of us have pursued degrees, courses, and certificates to make us more marketable or open doors for us?          

“Where do you come from?” I implored in the typical Kenyan way to discover his pedigree and upbringing.

“Kakamega,” he responded, knowing my question was out of habit more than calculated bias.    

I had a blank stare that spoke volumes about my mind at that moment. The young man, a consummate facial reader, dove into a narrative to distance himself from his rural home.

“My father has a farm in Kakamega, but everyone else is using modern farming methods, and it didn’t work for me,” he said assuredly.  

I had visited Kakamega several times and even remembered walking in the tropical Kakamega forest. My best moments were running up and down a road in the morning, enjoying the fresh air.

I heaved silently.

His words stuck with me as we walked towards a makeshift roadside Kibanda

He had relegated his father to being archaic and ancient. From his facial expressions, it was clear that he had no interest in farming.

“Where do you stay?” I inquired as we entered the eatery.

“At the shanties near Southlands,”

“Mama Jemu, kindly give this guy what he wants to eat,” I said. “Where should I send the money to?” I asked as I fired up my MPESA app.

“Thank you so much, and may God bless you mightily,” he said as I also thanked him for the blessings and walked home.

Yet the young man's face and words stayed with me longer.

It stayed with me as I watched a video explaining that there had been eighteen assassination attempts on Burkina Faso’s military leader Ibrahim TraorĂ©. A man who is systematically decolonising his country by paying off its local debt, halting the export of unrefined gold to Europe and increasing production of millet, tomatoes, and rice, making his country food-independent. The list continues.

I remembered the frustration and dejection in the young man’s face. Eloquent and confident. Yet, he was striving to understand why the system worked against him. This young man was told the best way to succeed was to study. He left the farm and travelled to Nairobi with the promise of a successful future. Still, four years later, he found out that the narrative he had been sold, one that many others had also heard of and sought to achieve in the same field, was not entirely accurate.

He walked the streets of Nairobi, to a desperate crawl. And without a strong network or a knowledgeable benefactor, he was left to observe his surroundings and adapt to the lives of those around him.  

Living in a ghetto in Langata, the jobs that put food on the table were menial and temporary. He curtailed his lofty dreams and became a menial worker.

Our minds are colonized. Mine as much as the next person. I have no right to consider the young man less astute than his agemates working in a tech company in the same city.  

Or should I?

Recently, I have added the following statement to my daily affirmations: “I decolonize my mind daily, seeking problems and providing solutions to achieve wealth.”

It is a systemic issue. When you listen to startups pitching for funding, you will notice their lack of conviction in what they are selling and their reluctance to bootstrap and fully commit to their idea. Many cried when Trump spoke of defunding USAID and, hence, Africa.

Yet, at every turn, a vast bank of problems is waiting to be solved. However, we lack men and women who are willing to walk the lonely, uncharted, risky, and undefined road away from what we have been indoctrinated to believe, to create something new. We defer to the government, development partners, or a system to resolve that issue.  

We let trash pile up outside our homes, because someone will collect it. We cause traffic jams on our roads, knowing our time is essential, and others need to make way for us. We leave a road muddy and unpassable, because it is the job of our county officials to sort it out, not the local community.

We are taught to deny taking responsibility and expect salvation from a ‘messiah.’ The ‘messiah’ appears to have a clearer understanding of the issue than you.  

This seems to be the mindset at the top and among those in power. They always expect a foreign power to take responsibility while they plunder and abuse their citizenry.

The president of Burkina Faso is strange to our educated minds. We want so much to associate with our colonizers, and bring them to our party and yearn for them to baby us and cuddle us years after independence.

I saw that in this young man, a desire to find a ‘messiah’ who would wish away his problems and offer him a job, so that he would suddenly be acceptable and successful.

The reality is that it had taken him two years of stress and dejection for him to realise that no one was coming to his aid. He had been reduced to a beggar by a system that was failing worldwide.

The world's education systems are outdated, poorly funded, and focus on rote learning rather than critical thinking.

Furthermore, when rote learners enter the workforce, they struggle to find employment, maintain their jobs, or excel in their careers. Why? Because how work is done has changed. We now need critical and creative thinkers.

A creative thinker embraces ambiguity, is bold in risk taking, a dreamer, imaginative, and intuitive. All things that the young man had not been allowed to be, and if he was, they were taken away from him soon enough as a child. He was required to be obedient, subservient and orderly.

Artificial Intelligence has mastered the orderly, structured, rule-based world and continues to replace many in their traditional careers. The only domain left to humans is the infinite universe of creativity. A place froth with dangers, risks and the unknown.

Growing up, I thought I was brilliant until I got to high school, where geniuses roamed the corridors, did nothing more than the normal, and still stood miles ahead.    

That was the first taste of dissonance, between what I had done and reality. It was then that I embarked on a fifteen-year quest to discover what success truly meant.   

The more I asked, the more I rejected being forced to ‘repair’ my weaknesses.

It took that long because I had no teachers or mentors who inspired me, and partly because the system idolises paychecks. Dreamers are treated harshly in a world they have not created, and until they can will their world into being, build it, and then invite the rest of the world into it, they must also attend to their essential needs.

As I write this piece. I keep asking myself how much more decolonizing I need to do, and I realise it's still a lot. It might take a while. However, in the process, I am happy to help others embark on that journey, because at its foundation, there is a clear need for self-awareness and clarity of purpose.

No wonder these two things are never taught in school because a slave must never have a higher purpose than the one given to them, and they must only be aware of the one they serve, the one who controls and owns them.

 

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Thank you for taking the time to read this blog! I'm Edwin Moindi, a Life and Habit Coach dedicated to helping people understand their habits, navigate their emotions, and cultivate emotional intelligence for a happier, more balanced life. I'd love to hear your thoughts—feel free to reach out and share your insights or questions! 

  

 

   

 

        

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